Friday, October 30, 2009

*Being pruned so you can bloom*

Back at my executive desk, with my chocolate 4 month year old chihuahua sitting under the desk curled up at my feet... I sit here staring at the toasted vanilla hazlenut candle flame flicker in and out of the dark room. The sun is setting and the lights in the room should be turned on, but i choose to sit here in the dark. Im sitting indian style in my black laether recliner chair, that if I lean too far back it will flip backwards... lol... funny ha? I have my new brown eye glasses on that I wear cause i cant see very far without them... and I keep rubbing my eyes and nose because Im not use to wearing glasses... I prefer my contacts, im not use to them yet.

Im in a new season, being pruned to bloom....

Lets define prune=

–verb (used with object), pruned, prun⋅ing. cut or lop off (twigs, branches, or roots). cut or lop superfluous or undesired twigs, branches, or roots from; trim. rid or clear of (anything superfluous or undesirable). remove (anything considered superfluous or undesirable).

which puts me in position for new growth. God is still in control, he is still on my side. He slowly, sometimes harshly (especially when i dont want to let something go) removes the branches in me that bear no fruit. Ewwwww.. painful? yup... uncomfortable.... yup.... but in the time of pruning comes NEW OPPORTUNITIES

lets define opportunities=

–noun, plural -ties. appropriate or favorable time or occasion: Their meeting afforded an opportunity to exchange views.
2.a situation or condition favorable for attainment of a goal.
3.a good position, chance, or prospect, as for advancement or success.

this is what I have to focus on, right? New wings will spread that I never knew I had. More confident, favor is coming.... things that people mean to harm me will turn out to bless me. God is closely watching... Trust, he knows everyone true intentions and real thoughts. it might seem like I took a step backwards, it really becomes a new path forward. without adversity or challenge, we cant grow... I stay in faith... Dream dream dream....

In a pruning season means I need to get into agreement, and start to look forward to increase, to blessings, to new opprtunities.

God closes one door cause he is gonna open another door.

I know when I come out of this pruning season, I will be closer to the real me. My character is molded in the times of trials. Everything I know is changing again, people, places and things are changing... right when I was comfortable, but thats the dangerous part.... cause in stagnation comes the pruning.... cause its time to go hard and grow big.... big visions big dreams...

The hotter the fire... the greater the pain... the closer you are to your blessing. So HOLD ON, you are close to giving birth to something new, something beyond your imagination... Stay faithful and obediant.... loving and caring... cause new levels of victory are right around he corner!!!!!!

Prune and be rid of the branches which do not bear fruit, could be friends, a job, a relationship, even a family member... it will be painful and will be sooooooooo uncomfortable that you turn to partying, drinking, drugs, building up bullet proof walls from the world ever penetrating your heart again.... that just hindering your soul from evolving ::smiling:: We have a lifetime to grow... and what happens is we try to control and go after what our SELFISH. sELF-CENTERED hearts desires, what we THINK is good for us. And its in that drama we cause, YES WE ARE THE CAUSE FOR ANY DRAMA in our life... take accountability, see our part, then let go and let GOd prune all the rotten branches that we allowed to rot cause we thought it would bloom... GOD will remove everything and anyone who is no longer bearing us fruit... let him!!!!! gezzzzz

I understand this hard but remember the real blessing the real you, is slowly being peeled layer by layer... and in that, boy is it painful, also who wants to be soooo vulnerable???

::standing up:: I do...