Kiara Mia "Exposed"
You asked... and now I have answered. Welcome to my personal secrets!!! An intimate revelation of my relationships, sex life, beauty secrets, and health tips... Follow me through lifes ups and downs, and how I survive the storms that life throws my ways. Enjoy!!
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Erased
Monday, January 16, 2012
The Illusionist
The queen illusionist
You only see, what she allows you to see
Mixs and matches her masterfully designed masks
To display at her grandest performances
What you see, is not what you get.
For she buries her secrets deep
Forbidden light to shine upon on those dark places she treasures so tight.
Distrustful
breathing, believing, living in the paranoia
That haunts her in her deepest sleep
Boardering on psycosis
She is her own enemy
Her only enemy
It dwells in her darkness she refuses to let light shine on
No one told that lil girl inside
You are a grown woman now
Cause she refuses to live her life
Without ever looking at her reflection in the mirror...
-DM
The Story of Her
I know
I'm not perfect
I know
your not perfect
I do know
Our love superseded the spiritual realm...
In this lifetime we will have learned love...
Played out our karma...
Learned our lesson...
And came to some very deep realizations...
I promise you
I will search the ends Of the earth for you In our nextlifetime together...
It's there I will know...
To hold you tight
And NEVER let you go again
Until we meet again mi Amor
My heart will whisper your name
~DM
Tragic Love Story
I whisper your name late at night when I lookup at the stars...
Our last kiss remains locked in the deepest depth of my beating heart...
When i close my eyes, take a deep breath in...
Your scent
lingers in the fresh air breeze across my face... .
I know you feel me...
I feel you too...
A love so deep, intense, and penetrating...
Spiritually penetrated by each others souls...
Fingertips losing hold of each other during the storm...
Friday, January 13, 2012
"Answered Prayers"
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
"Loving beyond my capabilities"
Do I dare reveal my inner most thoughts?
Let down my walls of coldness Ive mastered in the last 35 years of living
Im not the one to open up, expose, divulge
Years upon years of silence
Lips paralyzed
Speech impaired
Vulnerability my biggest fear
Pride poisons
Ego my venom
crippled by my past
My eyes cry for you
that you will never know
My hearts broken
that you will never know
My lips say, "I love you"
that you will never hear
On bended knees wishing you were back
that you will never see
Thinking about you day and night
that you will never know
wearing your tshirt to bed every night
that you will never see
Me running back saying, "I fucked up"
that you will never hear
A prisoner of my own silence
That I will have to live with...
-DM
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Solitude...
People may seek physical seclusion to remove distractions and make it easier to concentrate, reflect, or meditate. However, this is not necessarily an end in and of itself. Once a certain capacity to resist distractions is achieved, people become less sensitive to distractions and more capable of maintaining mindfulness and staying inwardly absorbed and concentrated. Such people, unless on a mission of helping others, don't seek any interaction with the external physical world. Their mindfulness is their world, at least ostensibly.
Today is Oct 7, 2011 Thursday night.... Through every storm there is a rainbow. I know that, its been a constant theme in my life. Tonight I took a hot bubble bath, lite my new candles I bought today at CVS, I bought a new scent.... thats rare... Im not one for change... I always get vanilla, but today i didnt. Interesting? To me yes! why? The fact that Im so open to try and do things differently is pretty incredible. Not my character, well at least it wasnt. I have despised the color pink for most of my 35 years of life, Im a fan of black. But I bought a new luggage set and I choose PINK. So I looked up the color pink to see what it represents...
Color Pink |
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Pink is the color of universal love. Pink is a quiet color. Lovers of beauty favor pink. A pink carnation means "I will never forget you". Pink EnergyPink is a combination of red and white. The quality of energy in pink is determined by how much red is present. White is the potential for fullness, while red helps you to achieve that potential. Pink combines these energies. Shades of deep pink, such as magenta, are effective in neutralizing disorder and violence. Some prisons use limited deep pink tones to diffuse aggressive behaviour. Pink provides feelings of caring, tenderness, self-worth and love, acceptance. Put some pink in your life when you want:
Pink gem stone propertiesPink gemstones can be used to promote love, self-worth, order and protection from violence or aggression. Carry or place pink gemstones around your home or office to stimulate love and beauty. |
LOOKING OUTSIDE YOUR BOX: Thinking outside of the box requires a person to be willing to think past accepted concepts and perspectives, to strive for the different. Thinking outside the box means seeking creative ideas. This form of pondering requires practice.
- Develop a new approach to solve problems. Be open to new possibilities that don't conform to the conventional ideas. Go beyond normal and look for alternative wisdom.
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Explore all your options. Don't settle for the first thing that comes to mind. Look at every angle by viewing things from a clean pair of glasses.
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Be a good listener and you'll hear things you've never heard before. The opinions presented could lead to solutions so listen carefully when someone is speaking.
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Determine not to settle for status quo. Strive for the unconventional ways, reach for the stars, be unique. Don't be afraid of people placing judgement it's a lesson for us all. That's thinking outside of the box.
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Practice thinking opposite of what comes natural. If you're trained to see the glass half-empty then see it half-full. If money never mattered then live like it does. These experiments will help re-train the mind to re-frame your thoughts
- Develop a new approach to solve problems. Be open to new possibilities that don't conform to the conventional ideas. Go beyond normal and look for alternative wisdom.
Being anything than authentic to myself today makes me feel yucky!! It will start to weight heavy on my heart and soul, and I will recognize the mask that I wear, and instantly want to rip it off and throw it off the empire state building. Blahhhhhhhhhhh... :::stinky face::: I am my worse critic and no one can beat me up worse than I can. No point in that, there is no victim, and no one cares for a fucking pity party. Suck it up, and learn. Honestly re evaluate and start over at any time.
All I know is that I want to do right to the authentic me. And right now, that means taking a sabbatical from dating, relationships, temporary fixs, and any kind of casual sex. ZERO interest!! ZERO.... feed me mind, inspire my soul... All the superficial bullshit and anger, and pain, is getting old. Just repeating same fucking pattern. Ive never taking time in my life to myself, to be in solitude. but my soul is yearning for it right now. Investing all the energy I put into loving someone else, into loving myself. Taking myself to a fancy dinner, drawing myself a hot bath, writing myself poems, being gentle to spirit right now. Theres so much love around me, I am investing in my family relationships and cherishing my friendships. surrounding myself weith those who build me up, inspire me, who are examples of integrity. Integrity is doing the right thing when no one is looking. No ones perfect, I know when my character defects are in full throttle, I recognize it. Doesnt take too long for me to feel like an ass, and realize exactly what I am doing. I might not be the best at saying sorry, today I'd rather show it by action. Sorry is just a word. Goodnight